TW: caps
Sry if its hard to understand I’m so tired rn
I just need to get this out <3
Gloomy, invisible, alone, fake fake FAKE.
“Are you okay?” Yes! Of course. This is just my resting face. I’m never sad! 
Please stop asking. Please leave me be. You can’t help me, you don’t know me.
“That was not what you were supposed to do XD” I know lol
SHUT UP, I KNOW. I’m sorry I can’t be perfect I’m sorry I don’t understand.
I’m sitting at this table during this club meeting alone because I want to. See that table next to me? Those are totally my friends. I know them so well. We’ve been doing this forever. I’m not friendless. I have friends!
So much homework… I guess I can just skip me time… yeah, the homework is more important than that walk I was gonna take around the park with my family.
Where am I supposed to go? What am I supposed to do? I swear I was listening… how does everyone know where to go? What did I do wrong?
They all hate me. I can hear them saying things, they are talking about me they know how terrible I am what have I done
FAKE. So. fake. I’m. just. an. attention. seeker. don’t. talk. to. them. your. friend. is. in. the. middle. of. a. conversation. shut your mouth! you’ll only make it worse. why can’t I be normal. why must I mess everything up. why aren’t you talking to me? did I do something wrong? I must have. its all my fault. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. IM SORRY.
We are friends.
“hi!” no response
We are not as close as I thought?
“hello!”
“Hey!”
I guess I was wrong…
“hi again!” silence
Did they not… hear me?
ITS YOU ITS ALWAYS YOU YOU MESSED IT UP YOU SAID THE WRONG THING SAY A REAL EMOTION WHEN SOMEONE ASKS HOW YOURE DOING STOP BEING ANNOYING YOU JUST SAID A MEAN THING HOW COULD YOU YOURE SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY JUST BE HAPPY AND NORMAL YOU KNOW EXACTLY HOW TO ACT AND BE ITS NOT HARD YOURE JUST LAZY IF YOURE SICK POWER THROUGH DONT GO HOME YOUR PARENTS CANT LOSE VACATION DAYS BECAUSE OF YOU STOP BEING A BURDEN YOURE NOT TRYING HARD ENOUGH TRY HARDER IF ITS NOT WORKING THATS ON YOU THE PROBLEM IS YOU ALWAYS YOU THEY WILL ALL LEAVE YOU YOU WILL BE ALONE SO DONT MESS UP WHEN WILL EVERYONE SEE THAT IM THE PROBLEM?